Choice and the pain of choosing

When thinking becomes the objective sometimes for me doing falls away. In the past few weeks I have been thinking and not writing on this my blog. It shows a lack of commitment on one hand and a willingness to let things be as they should on the other. Today in my "Meditations for women who do too much"  by Anne Wilson Schaef,  the discussion was about choosing the gifts that you most want to use. I wonder if age and exhaustion are the signposts for telling us to slow down, consider and choose. I feel I have been choosing lately and there is loss involved in making choices. As I edit on paper and refine the story of Amanda and Drag's Aloud I have to accept that so much of what is important in the lives I have witnessed cannot be said in this film. I am in the painful and often frustrating place of choosing what is in and what is out. There is pain in choice and choice in pain, but for me that choice doesn't make the process any easier. How then do Transgendered people like Amanda get through the many choices they have to make and what are the losses involved? What are the losses involved in choosing to change gender or genderrepresentation? I have my own view but what do you think? Why not leave me a comment and let me know.