Rites of passage continue through life

I feel like a mother who has given away her baby!! Today I have given the entire footage file over to a inspiring young editor who is going to put together a rough cut of the film. After weeks of trial and error and too much emotional attention I feel today the burden of perfection lifted. I have been anxious and resisting the pace of the ride that is my film progress for the last few weeks. Last week I showed a trailer to some generous and talented people at Doco3000. www.doco3000.blogspot.comTheir comment, encouragement and criticisms were received with good grace and given in true Doco3000 supportive style. But it all felt a bit overwhelming and I had to go underground for a day or two to collect myself and recover. This final stage of constructing story and showing film as story is taking its toll on me in more ways than you can imagine. My desire to make the best film and convey or portray Amanda and Drags Aloud in the most honest, truthful and interesting way is asking something of me in an emotional capacity I had not expected. The making of this film is feeling like a rite of passage into a new phase of my adult, post maternal, independent and self confident womanhood. Can the words of the beautiful Georgian Dresser from New York now be applied to me? Quote " you girls are so wonderful, you've got me in touch with my own womanhood!"  Is it possible that it is me who most needs to learn the lessons that this inspiring story will attempt to convey?